Room At The Table

Something I’ve learned the hard way is that motherhood, despite all its wonderfulness, can be awfully lonely. There is a lot of time invested in menial tasks, a lot of self-sacrifice, a lot of grunt work, a lot of feeing like your hands are tied and a lot a lot of managing all that on your own.

In no way, shape or form am I suggesting these are the ONLY feelings wrapped around mothering because I’ve never loved anything like I’ve loved being a mom. I’m just saying there is room for conflicting feelings at the table of motherhood.

Loving it and being frustrated by it. Wanting your babies to stay little forever and wanting them to be old enough to do things on their own so you can sit down for 10 minutes. Wondering if you want more kids because you love having a baby on your hip and being excited about the next phase of life that seems to have far less spit-up involved.

It’s complicated! Honestly, without a supportive group of other parents around me, I don’t know how I’d wade through all the feelings. It’s easy to get caught up in all the thoughts and forget that there are millions of other women juggling them too. And no, I don’t think any of us really have the answer to how to be the perfect mom, but I do think that knowing you’re not alone makes a world of difference.

I’m so thankful for the moms in my life (both in front of my camera and behind!!) who support me every day. The super talented woman pictured below is someone who has always made me, and countless others, feel welcomed and understood and has shared in the chaos, hardship and joy of motherhood! Thank you, Addie, for always having room at your table for the rest of us! Your heart is even more beautiful than your work, which is hard to believe because HELLO GORGEOUS!!! (See her work here!)

A Good and Perfect Gift

I’ve said it before, but only because it’s so true. Being welcomed into the sweet newborn bubble is one of the best perks that comes with this job. When parents are still figuring things out and not letting just anyone through their doors quite yet, I get to come in and soak it alllllll up. The snuggles and the laughs and the questioning looks of “is this normal” and the yawns that come from being up all night and the “can you get me some water, I’m dying of thirst!!!” that comes with nursing and the dividing up the tasks between spouses as they figure out a system - I get to see it all. AND I LOVE IT.

Having gone through those first days 3 times with my own kids and having those kids grow up (against my strict orders to stay babies forever!!!), I both remember it like it was yesterday and also can’t believe I ever lived like that!!!

My morning with this new family of 3 (sorry Milo. I meant 4!!!) was so much fun. It was equal parts sweet and funny and tender. It truly felt like being with old friends even though it was our very first time meeting!! I’m so thankful for the opportunity to document this time of change in their lives. What a gift!

I can this for you too, by the way. CONTACT ME (here) to chat details and put something on the calendar :)

Moments like this of you and your family deserve to be documented!! CONTACT ME (here) to chat details and put something on the calendar :)

When You Need It the Most | Mechanicsburg PA Family Photographer

Last year I started a project where I took a self portrait of me and my three kids together once a month. I will admit I didn’t finish out the year with my goal, but that’s not the point! The reason I share is that in the time I was doing those self portraits I learned something important.

The days I was struggling.
The days I didn’t want to be in a photo.
The days I felt like a bad mom…

those were the days I needed to be in photos with my kids the most. When I took the time to be creative (for me creative time is always soul-filling!), to be happy (forced or not!) and to focus on the kiddos (without any distractions), I almost instantly felt better.

But that’s not where the goodness ends, because later I actually SAW the photos.

I saw their little arms around me.
I saw their smiles.
I saw MY smile.

I saw how much they love me, imperfections and all. Not every individual moment of motherhood feels amazing, it just can’t! So, having tangible proof that I can look at and SEE THE LOVE… It’s priceless!

Often times we think the best times for photos is when the kids are perfectly happy and we’re in a great place feeling good about our weight and our hair and our home. But I don’t know. I think the best time for photos doesn’t actually exist. Every time is a good time for photos. It’s easy to agree to them and sign up for them when you’re rockin at life. But don’t count out the magical healing powers love-filled images to have on an open heart that could use a little TLC. Just sayin!

If you’re thinking your heart could use a little photo-magic-TLC, reach out HERE and/or check out my other family work HERE!

summer capsule | Carlisle PA family photographer

It was a gooooood summer. So many fun memories with friends and family fill my mind when I think about. But also, so many fun memories working lots of amazing people too. I know everyone’s always saying how lucky they are to have this job, but ya know what? It’s because we really are so lucky as photographers. Our job has plenty of hard parts, but it has so many perks. The people we meet, where we get to work (hello gorgeous summer sun!) and the service we get to provide to families - what more could we ask for?!?

This summer I tried out some Magic Hour Mini Sessions for the first time and couldn’t be more thrilled with the results if I tried. It was the best decision of the summer, without a doubt. And that’s saying something because my family did an ice-cream tour of Carlisle where we taste-tested ice cream from all the local creameries…

A few of my summer favorites are below. Thank you Summer of 2018, for all the goldeny delicious memories.

all good things | Carlisle PA family photographer

Green grass.
Twirly dresses.
Sweet kisses.
Squeezy hugs.
Belly laughs.
Golden sun.

And bug bites.

This session had EVERYTHING good about summer (and one bad thing!) all wrapped up into one delightful family love fest. I couldn’t have left this shoot feeling more in love with green grass, twirly dresses, sweet kisses, squeezy hugs, belly laughs and golden sun.

Magic hour minis were a new thing this year. I wasn’t sure how it would go, but I was optimistic. Needless to say, I think these bad boys are here to stay! Although there aren’t any more at this point, you can be first to know about next year’s mini sessions by subscribing to my email list (here!) or following me on instagram (here!).

And you can always always always count me in for a full session in the fall/winter/spring (and summer!) magic light too. Contact me (here!) and we’ll get the ball rollin for ya!