A Happy Heart

When I first started as a photographer I was really excited, really insecure, really really hard on myself and really unsure of what exactly I wanted to do. I created from a place of pure joy (it was so fun!!!), but also from a place of wanting to do what other people wanted. I thought less about what I wanted to create and more about what I thought other people would like. 


I imagine it’s a normal place to start from so I don’t begrudge my start, but I tell ya what: I’m glad I’m beyond that!!! It’s such a hard place to be. Aside from the fact that you’re always chasing approval from others, you’re also always threatened by other people. It feels like every other person taking photos is your direct competition. You worry that if your clients see what that person is doing, they’ll ditch you for the better option. You’re possessive of every idea you have and jealous of every idea other people have. 


IT’S EXHAUSTING!!! 


One of my first examples of “there’s room for all of us to be successful” is this kind, talented, gorgeous lady. She was my friend, my supporter, my cheerleader - my first ever photo friend who didn’t seem to be bothered by the fact that I was a photographer too. When someone asked me if it was hard being friends with my competition, I honestly couldn’t even answer the question. Because she wasn’t my competition. We were just two people in it together. Both of us wanting the best for ourselves and for the other person. Turns out a little mutual respect can really go a long way!!! 


Having other photographers as my colleagues and not my competition has paved a path for so much growth, but most importantly, peace of mind. Whether or not my work is better for having these people on my side (it is!), my heart is happier. And that’s what I care about most anyway!


Erin, thank you for making my heart happy when we’re behind the camera together and most certainly when you’re in front of my camera with your adorable family. I just adore you!!! 


PS: You can view Erin’s work at http://www.egmphotography.com/ - it’s worth the click, trust me!

If you want a little of this photographic proof of family love for yourself, contact me! (HERE!) and maybe take a little scroll through my other family work too! (HERE!)

Room At The Table

Something I’ve learned the hard way is that motherhood, despite all its wonderfulness, can be awfully lonely. There is a lot of time invested in menial tasks, a lot of self-sacrifice, a lot of grunt work, a lot of feeing like your hands are tied and a lot a lot of managing all that on your own.

In no way, shape or form am I suggesting these are the ONLY feelings wrapped around mothering because I’ve never loved anything like I’ve loved being a mom. I’m just saying there is room for conflicting feelings at the table of motherhood.

Loving it and being frustrated by it. Wanting your babies to stay little forever and wanting them to be old enough to do things on their own so you can sit down for 10 minutes. Wondering if you want more kids because you love having a baby on your hip and being excited about the next phase of life that seems to have far less spit-up involved.

It’s complicated! Honestly, without a supportive group of other parents around me, I don’t know how I’d wade through all the feelings. It’s easy to get caught up in all the thoughts and forget that there are millions of other women juggling them too. And no, I don’t think any of us really have the answer to how to be the perfect mom, but I do think that knowing you’re not alone makes a world of difference.

I’m so thankful for the moms in my life (both in front of my camera and behind!!) who support me every day. The super talented woman pictured below is someone who has always made me, and countless others, feel welcomed and understood and has shared in the chaos, hardship and joy of motherhood! Thank you, Addie, for always having room at your table for the rest of us! Your heart is even more beautiful than your work, which is hard to believe because HELLO GORGEOUS!!! (See her work here!)

The Strength of Women

I’ve always been on the “women are amazing” train. Mostly because I’m a woman and I want to believe it about myself, but also because HOLY COW have you seen what women do!? To summarize: everything.

Being part of a mini maternity session for the insanely sweet, funny, talented, STRONGER THAN STRONG Tina was an honor. If you are lucky enough to know Tina and her story, you know that she’s an inspiring example of love and strength. If you don’t know Tina and her story, make sure you’re ready for sad, happy and inspired tears when you get into it… just bring your tissues, ok?!

Tina, her husband and her daughter will welcome their newest family member this September with the help of their generous surrogate, Lindsay. Seeing these two women together was very powerful and moving. I’m in awe of them both!

And so thankful to be reminded that there truly is still so much good in the world.

This mini session will always be so special to me!!

If you missed out on my Magic Hour Minis, but still want to work together, keep your eyes peeled for my End of Year Mini sessions coming up. You can join my mailing list to get the dates before they’re public. Click here to sign up!

And It Was All Yellow

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah they were all yellow

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called "Yellow"

So then I took my turn
Oh what a thing to have done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
You know, you know I love you so
You know I love you so

-Coldplay

Those are not my words, but when I read them this session came into my head and I couldn’t think of any better words to pair with this beautiful family. They are so madly in love with their baby boy and I am so grateful to have gotten the chance to be a witness to it this summer.

A Good and Perfect Gift

I’ve said it before, but only because it’s so true. Being welcomed into the sweet newborn bubble is one of the best perks that comes with this job. When parents are still figuring things out and not letting just anyone through their doors quite yet, I get to come in and soak it alllllll up. The snuggles and the laughs and the questioning looks of “is this normal” and the yawns that come from being up all night and the “can you get me some water, I’m dying of thirst!!!” that comes with nursing and the dividing up the tasks between spouses as they figure out a system - I get to see it all. AND I LOVE IT.

Having gone through those first days 3 times with my own kids and having those kids grow up (against my strict orders to stay babies forever!!!), I both remember it like it was yesterday and also can’t believe I ever lived like that!!!

My morning with this new family of 3 (sorry Milo. I meant 4!!!) was so much fun. It was equal parts sweet and funny and tender. It truly felt like being with old friends even though it was our very first time meeting!! I’m so thankful for the opportunity to document this time of change in their lives. What a gift!

I can this for you too, by the way. CONTACT ME (here) to chat details and put something on the calendar :)

Moments like this of you and your family deserve to be documented!! CONTACT ME (here) to chat details and put something on the calendar :)